Single girl looking for love in a lonely world!

Looking back growing up as a teenager I was never considered a plus size.  I was an active child always playing basketball or running or even bike riding with the neighborhood kids.  However back then I always had low self confidence because my younger sister Jennifer was like a 0 or 2 and here I was a size 12/14.    I remember just always wondering why she got to be so small and I was so "big".   I don't think it really started to bother me until I was a freshman, during this time your body is already going through crazy emotions with puberty and now to through this in the mix oh boy!    I remember going school clothes shopping with my parents and her and I did not want to come out in anything as I thought my sister Jennifer is going to look better than me because she is so "small."  Why didn't I look like my baby sister? Why was I not a size 2? What was wrong with me?  I just remember just feeling so bad about myself and quite honestly now as an adult ther

 As a 36 year old woman I have just became familiar with the latest trending dating situation called "ghosting".  If you aren't sure what that means it is when you've been seeing someone romantically and suddenly they just stop talking to you.  No texts messages, snaps or calls, they have basically cut you off entirely, leaving you questioning yourself "What did I do wrong"? Dating today in itself is so confusing and hard how can there possibly be another situation to worry about? At my age you think men would be ready to settle down but no they are looking for the next best thing.  Casual sex, no strings attached sex has become the new normal.  Many of my friends often talk about this and how low there expectations are of actually finding someone to date seriously as we have all had terrible experiences.  If communication is the key in a a relationship why do people ghost? I believe people ghost because it's easier to pull away then to deal with the lac

"No strings attached sex" is bullshit.  As my first experience of "no strings attached" sex didn't go so well.  I have never had an issue with people having a one night stand, booty call or friends with benefits situation to each it's own.  It's the phrase "no strings attached" that I despise.  It never ends up being that easy no matter how it started.  Sadly "no strings attached" became the next best thing for a man or a woman who is afraid of commitment. In reality, no strings attached  sex is used in many different scenarios: sex with strangers, sex with friends who we do not want romantically or even drunk sex.  Often we use this situation if we have just broken up with a partner, or looking  for some sort of validation that you are sexy and men crave you, or  just wanting to try out that hot bartender that you and your friends are crushing on.   Why does it end up being so complicated if it comes from two consenting adults? I'

 What happened to that old school love?  I recently have been binge watching romantic movies and it made me question this?  What happened to when a guy would come to your doorstep to pick you up with flowers and even open your car door?  Or that love that consisted of morals,values and honesty? I had recently gone on a date with a guy that seemed perfect.  We talked about everything under the sun, he even brought up the whole sex thing and not wanting to rush into it.  At this day and age that is almost unheard of, most guys are just on the prowl for the next notch in their belt.  So he comes to pick me up for the first time and he never even got out of the car?  Why? Now don't get me wrong I am a very independent woman but it would have been nice for him to come to the door for the first time when picking me up.   Society has changed this world so much that men don't feel the need to do this anymore.  In today's world social media runs it.  Men are not the only ones to bla

 Do you ever totally forget your first love? Every time I hear someone's first love story I always reflect back on my own.  The only unique thing about my love story was I was a teenager from a small suburban town and Joshua was 3 years older than me a city boy, with a little wild side. Everyone says you were to young to know what love was. I know what love was and it was what I had with him. Here is my story. When I was a teen I was a romanticist. I always believed in that fairy tale love that you see in movies.  I always believed one day I would find that love that takes your breath away.   Life has a crazy way of working out, I did meet him when I was a sophomore in high school.  It was while working at my first job.  I was 16 he was 19. We both came from different backgrounds but somehow we worked.  He was tall,charming, handsome and had the most gorgeous blue eyes I could get lost in forever.  From the moment I walked into that orientation meeting I locked eyes with him and my

 As a single woman dating in today's world the question I ask myself all the time when getting to know someone is he too good to be true? Sadly dating has changed so much and people lie so much it's hard to believe anything you hear.  So my most recent dating "experience" comes this charming guy.   So randomly sitting on the couch reading a book when my phone goes  off on facebook saying that "Bob" sent you a friend request.  So I casually look at Bob's profile and see we have so many mutual friends now my mind starts to wonder did I meet him somewhere back in the day maybe a club or a bar?  So anyways I accept it then he starts to pursue me all day by liking status and pictures.  Later on that evening my phone is going off that I have a message it's Bob he starts off so charming, saying sorry for the flood of likes today with a winky face, from there the conversation developed.  I found out he had a car,job, his own place, no kids and never been mar