Single girl looking for love in a lonely world!

 I often ask myself "Where's my happy ending"?   I am the type of person whether you are family, friend or a potential partner I give you all of me good and bad.  Sometimes I often let people take advantage of me and that is one of my weaknesses for sure.   I have always craved that fairy tale love and have never seemed to find it, or keep it, yet I have friends who have and have thrown it away for a cheap one night stand or a summer fling why? Why can't anyone just be happy when they find someone who gives them their all?   Should I sacrifice my wants and needs for what comes to me and is convenient and just settle? Now don't get me wrong I do have a "list" of what I am looking for in a man. Some of my friends say I am crazy for having a "list", but I disagree I have worked very hard my whole life to get where I am today and wants someone who also has goals and inspirations and not living in mommy and daddy's basement. Am I wrong for this?

 What happened to that old school love?  I recently have been binge watching romantic movies and it made me question this?  What happened to when a guy would come to your doorstep to pick you up with flowers and even open your car door?  Or that love that consisted of morals,values and honesty? I had recently gone on a date with a guy that seemed perfect.  We talked about everything under the sun, he even brought up the whole sex thing and not wanting to rush into it.  At this day and age that is almost unheard of, most guys are just on the prowl for the next notch in their belt.  So he comes to pick me up for the first time and he never even got out of the car?  Why? Now don't get me wrong I am a very independent woman but it would have been nice for him to come to the door for the first time when picking me up.   Society has changed this world so much that men don't feel the need to do this anymore.  In today's world social media runs it.  Men are not the only ones to bla

 Do you ever totally forget your first love? Every time I hear someone's first love story I always reflect back on my own.  The only unique thing about my love story was I was a teenager from a small suburban town and Joshua was 3 years older than me a city boy, with a little wild side. Everyone says you were to young to know what love was. I know what love was and it was what I had with him. Here is my story. When I was a teen I was a romanticist. I always believed in that fairy tale love that you see in movies.  I always believed one day I would find that love that takes your breath away.   Life has a crazy way of working out, I did meet him when I was a sophomore in high school.  It was while working at my first job.  I was 16 he was 19. We both came from different backgrounds but somehow we worked.  He was tall,charming, handsome and had the most gorgeous blue eyes I could get lost in forever.  From the moment I walked into that orientation meeting I locked eyes with him and my