Single girl looking for love in a lonely world!

Looking back growing up as a teenager I was never considered a plus size.  I was an active child always playing basketball or running or even bike riding with the neighborhood kids.  However back then I always had low self confidence because my younger sister Jennifer was like a 0 or 2 and here I was a size 12/14.    I remember just always wondering why she got to be so small and I was so "big".   I don't think it really started to bother me until I was a freshman, during this time your body is already going through crazy emotions with puberty and now to through this in the mix oh boy!    I remember going school clothes shopping with my parents and her and I did not want to come out in anything as I thought my sister Jennifer is going to look better than me because she is so "small."  Why didn't I look like my baby sister? Why was I not a size 2? What was wrong with me?  I just remember just feeling so bad about myself and quite honestly...

 As a 36 year old woman I have just became familiar with the latest trending dating situation called "ghosting".  If you aren't sure what that means it is when you've been seeing someone romantically and suddenly they just stop talking to you.  No texts messages, snaps or calls, they have basically cut you off entirely, leaving you questioning yourself "What did I do wrong"? Dating today in itself is so confusing and hard how can there possibly be another situation to worry about? At my age you think men would be ready to settle down but no they are looking for the next best thing.  Casual sex, no strings attached sex has become the new normal.  Many of my friends often talk about this and how low there expectations are of actually finding someone to date seriously as we have all had terrible experiences.  If communication is the key in a a relationship why do people ghost? I believe people ghost because it's easier to pull away then to deal with the lac...

 Do you ever totally forget your first love? Every time I hear someone's first love story I always reflect back on my own.  The only unique thing about my love story was I was a teenager from a small suburban town and Joshua was 3 years older than me a city boy, with a little wild side. Everyone says you were to young to know what love was. I know what love was and it was what I had with him. Here is my story. When I was a teen I was a romanticist. I always believed in that fairy tale love that you see in movies.  I always believed one day I would find that love that takes your breath away.   Life has a crazy way of working out, I did meet him when I was a sophomore in high school.  It was while working at my first job.  I was 16 he was 19. We both came from different backgrounds but somehow we worked.  He was tall,charming, handsome and had the most gorgeous blue eyes I could get lost in forever.  From the moment I walked into that orientati...